Maya Made It...

I was born into a world that was designed out of fear, to lock me into a cage, program me to
be an asset with no needs, desire and individuality of my own.

The world was designed to transmit the suffering of another.

I got out when I realised “the Family” was never mine. I was a subject, the slave for a cause that was never mine.

I sat on a bench at the front of the house. I held my new baby to my
breast as I felt nauseous and lightheaded from hemorrhaging a few days earlier whilst giving birth.

My two-year-old was hyperactive and running out onto the street.

I was scared for his safety, but so tired. I didn’t have the energy to chase after him, so I yelled, “Sweet boy, please come back” trying to hold back tear.

I had raised so many children that were not my own, for the “family” but now I was completely alone. I had a toddler with a brain injury from medical neglect and a new baby that I didn’t have the energy to care for. The decisions were made for me, but the consequences were mine to carry.

I had so many worries about how to provide, I had no money to be able to buy the sanitary products needed. I decided I needed to bake a batch of cookies to sell door to door, with my babies in tow, so I could get some money for the necessities.

How had I gotten to this position? I had given everything and gotten nothing. I had given my husband over and over although I cried myself to sleep more nights than I could count. I had given my youth and opportunities, making money for others, raising children for others, working as a slave all nights and all days, I had given complete control of my life to a cause run by those who only ever wanted more, and never gave anything back.

Worst of all- I had given my children. I was sacrificing their future, their health and safety, their stability, their ability to have a home, family and love. I determined at that moment that I was done!

As soon as the government baby bonus of a few hundred dollars came in, I was out, with or without my husband. I was a woman possessed to give my boys everything I never had.

And now decades later I have.

~Maya